Back away to the safety of a quiet house.
Sigggh, running so low on cash, I'm seriously desperateeee.. I really am so cash-strapped ): Come some money money money. Totally wasted my money on this movie, Superbad. Seriously it is super bad. Damn gayyy can. All they talk about is sex, girls, dicks and they hurl profanities more than I do. /: Uhh kay, I wasn't suppose to in the first place. Sighh. Still some parts of the movie was worth the laugh, spasms and all. Hmm. Prata for lunch, cheapo ice-cream for desserts and some gummies for the itchy mouths (: haha.
Back to band. I seriously think I suck so bad when it comes to making music. Just can't make it la. Hais. And I'm so overly dependent on my peers. Sigh.. I'm so demoralised. What's more, concert's this coming friday. My excitement, mood and feelings are still not here. Don't know why I'm feeling soooo... But I just DREAD everything about band now. It's not about anything or anyone, it's about Me and Myself. I lost my passion for making band music, I've lost my passion for this band... I lost everything I once had... OHHH GOD, I feel so damn depressed now. I don't feel like carrying on, I'm on my verge..
I hate it when everything decided to crumble upon my feet. And I don't have a solution to all this questions I don't even understand. Succumbing to my fears.
You close your eyes and kiss your hand, then you blow it